Sometimes

Sometimes victories don't look like you think they will.

It's not the house, the kids, the partner, the promotion.

It's that you started a medication that scared you and it saved your life.

It's finding yourself six months into a positive habit you've struggle to get off the ground for decades.

It's going through something horrible just for it to show you that you finally have the support system you've always dreamed of.

It's watching your spark come back after patiently tending to your environment & creating the conditions that would allow the spark to survive.

Sometimes, victories look like the audacity to keep going.

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Half

Half

Half of me stares, unfocused, at nothing in particular. I, her, we dissociate. Pleasantly warm, feeling nothing emotionally. Mentally, I remain in neutral. How good it feels to be nothing at all! Half of me flips rapidly through a rolodex of stories, half-baked daydreams. If only I could catch

Ache

Ache

And when I see you my heart crumbles to dust. For as lovely and healing as I am, you are as fearful and wounded. I am sad for you-- how painful must this be! I am sad for me, but I know that while I am deserving of love, this

I didn't go

I didn't go

I didn’t go to the party for this moment. I stayed home to sit by the window-- cat on my lap, writing by candlelight-- so that when the sky opened up, I would be there with the window open, to let the warm petrichor waft through. I skipped to

Fossilized Woman

Fossilized Woman

Who is she? This woman within, who I keep fossilized, buried under years of dirt in the sand that packs my soul. How could I let her become forgotten? Exploited, abandoned in man’s endless conquest. When did the rest of my being grow so dry? I once was a